23rd November 2009

hi guys
i am back to blog but i don't think there will be anyone looking at my blog
so be it
i have started working at citychain at central point but soon transfering to orchard central
and today went to tiong bahru to work at the show case kinda of bored but sold 6 pieces of watch damn happy but the price all at 40 to 50 bucks nia somemore no commission WTH sian LOL
soon the time reached 10pm and i finished my work
suddenly something struck my mind tomorrow, which is today 23rd november is the day my brother come out from DRC
After 6 months he finally come out le i can still remember the image of me last saw him at market and telling me he was going to DRC.
Saying DRC i remember me and my mother went to see him in DRC
actually quite shameful thing for me as i am already so old liao
because when i reached the room and saw my brother my tears start falling by itself,
and i don't know why tears start flowing out by itself, cause i don't know whether is i feel sad to saw him inside or too happy to see him?? cause i had been busy studying for my O's
so i visit him when he was inside around 4 months already.
And now he is coming at 11.30am in the morning, and i am at work already by that time
most importantly i don't know what should i do or say when i finished work and saw him at home
and i don't know whether should i crying or saying happily ' KOR you at last come home le i miss you so much'?
The confuse in my mind is like something that i don't know how to explain or you can even said i don't know what am i confusing about because i have been used to the life that my brother's room is empty although the time had past 6 months
i want to said the confused things in my mind out to my brothers outside and my girlfriend
but i don't know how to start it
And for now i am sitting alone at the kitchen using laptop due to my mother and my brother's son is sleeping in the living room and thinking on how should i react when tomorrow i saw him. If you tell me to react as normal i don't know i can do it
Because although my brother take control banned drugs but he is still a very good big brother when i smoke he never said anything instead everytime i no cigg to smoke he will give me and i want use computer he would let me use too even if i do wrong things like stole ice-cream he also did not said anything instead he told me not to do it anymore because my parents are pinning high hope on me. This made me very stress, i would like to be like other kids around my age to play around and fool around during holiday, but now i had to work till my legs are damn numb and pain due to the long standing hours maybe i will slowly get used to it ba.
till now i am still thinking what to said to my brother when i saw him
cause i am 100% sure that when i saw him i will definitly stun at there looking at him only
And this maybe is my last post because my brother is back and i had to return him the laptop as it is his and i would have no more laptop or computer to use le SIAN!
No more naruto and zhong ji san guo for me to see nb nvm i lend from my sister or brother when they are not using haha
Finally, i want to said something is that Kor i miss you, hope you don't do wrong things again i am sure everyone in the family had forgiven you and somemore you should know mum dotes you the most don't made her disappointed and sad anymore, cause mum and dad are getting older each day and somemore need to help you take care of jovan and go work i think they must be very tired le so when you come back try to help them or maybe even go find a job? And don't mind how much is the pay cause at least you work you would have income to support your family, you can don't eat but jovan can't cause he is only 3 years old, somemore few years later he would be going to nursery, primary school, secondary school or maybe even Poly or other that would be a huge burden for you. But don't forget you still have us your little brother, sister, mum, dad and shirley jie jie and i think miss you the most would be her le so don't make her disappointed again learn how to cherish don't wait until the day you lost then you come cherish it will be all too late.
I don't know whether my brother would see until ma so write at here and hope he would see it and don't do wrong things again =)
I would be ending here as tomorrow there is work for me at tiong bahru office at 10.30am
so gtg
bye people=)