hi guys
i am back to blog but i don't think there will be anyone looking at my blog
so be it
i have started working at citychain at central point but soon transfering to orchard central
and today went to tiong bahru to work at the show case kinda of bored but sold 6 pieces of watch damn happy but the price all at 40 to 50 bucks nia somemore no commission WTH sian LOL
soon the time reached 10pm and i finished my work
suddenly something struck my mind tomorrow, which is today 23rd november is the day my brother come out from DRC
After 6 months he finally come out le i can still remember the image of me last saw him at market and telling me he was going to DRC.
Saying DRC i remember me and my mother went to see him in DRC
actually quite shameful thing for me as i am already so old liao
because when i reached the room and saw my brother my tears start falling by itself,
and i don't know why tears start flowing out by itself, cause i don't know whether is i feel sad to saw him inside or too happy to see him?? cause i had been busy studying for my O's
so i visit him when he was inside around 4 months already.
And now he is coming at 11.30am in the morning, and i am at work already by that time
most importantly i don't know what should i do or say when i finished work and saw him at home
and i don't know whether should i crying or saying happily ' KOR you at last come home le i miss you so much'?
The confuse in my mind is like something that i don't know how to explain or you can even said i don't know what am i confusing about because i have been used to the life that my brother's room is empty although the time had past 6 months
i want to said the confused things in my mind out to my brothers outside and my girlfriend
but i don't know how to start it
And for now i am sitting alone at the kitchen using laptop due to my mother and my brother's son is sleeping in the living room and thinking on how should i react when tomorrow i saw him. If you tell me to react as normal i don't know i can do it
Because although my brother take control banned drugs but he is still a very good big brother when i smoke he never said anything instead everytime i no cigg to smoke he will give me and i want use computer he would let me use too even if i do wrong things like stole ice-cream he also did not said anything instead he told me not to do it anymore because my parents are pinning high hope on me. This made me very stress, i would like to be like other kids around my age to play around and fool around during holiday, but now i had to work till my legs are damn numb and pain due to the long standing hours maybe i will slowly get used to it ba.
till now i am still thinking what to said to my brother when i saw him
cause i am 100% sure that when i saw him i will definitly stun at there looking at him only
And this maybe is my last post because my brother is back and i had to return him the laptop as it is his and i would have no more laptop or computer to use le SIAN!
No more naruto and zhong ji san guo for me to see nb nvm i lend from my sister or brother when they are not using haha
Finally, i want to said something is that Kor i miss you, hope you don't do wrong things again i am sure everyone in the family had forgiven you and somemore you should know mum dotes you the most don't made her disappointed and sad anymore, cause mum and dad are getting older each day and somemore need to help you take care of jovan and go work i think they must be very tired le so when you come back try to help them or maybe even go find a job? And don't mind how much is the pay cause at least you work you would have income to support your family, you can don't eat but jovan can't cause he is only 3 years old, somemore few years later he would be going to nursery, primary school, secondary school or maybe even Poly or other that would be a huge burden for you. But don't forget you still have us your little brother, sister, mum, dad and shirley jie jie and i think miss you the most would be her le so don't make her disappointed again learn how to cherish don't wait until the day you lost then you come cherish it will be all too late.
I don't know whether my brother would see until ma so write at here and hope he would see it and don't do wrong things again =)
I would be ending here as tomorrow there is work for me at tiong bahru office at 10.30am
so gtg
bye people=)
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Sunday, August 16, 2009
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well i am back to blog
i am here to tell a story about a 3 years old little boy
well a couple of the same age got married as the women got pregnant before marriage
with the help of their parents they got married after a few months
the boy was born actually they can have a happy family
but the father got into bad company
and start to bet on soccer and take drugs
and when he loses money in soccer and he does not have the money to pay the debt
he went to loan sharks to lend money to pay off the debt
but the father was in army and with every month of 400 dollars of pay from the army
it is not enough to clear the debt of the loan sharks
the debt start to rise by alot and the father was totally unable to clear the debt
and started to lend money from his parents and siblings
but it is still not enough to clear off the debts
in the end the loan sharks starts to come disturb his family
by throwing flower pots outside their house door
writing words on the walls of the staircase
it cause his family to have darkness in their life
and the wife get to know about his husband having this kind of problem
she did not leave him alone instead she helped him to clear his debt
but when everyone in his family or his wife hope he will turn over a new leaf
something happen
he start taking drugs and gotten himself into debt again
and this time it is worst he owe more then 10k from the loan sharks
but to prevent the family to get disturbed from the loan sharks his mother took out money
to help him clear his debt but he did not stop taking drugs
and one day his mother found something about drugs in his room
and his mother was filled with anger and disappointment
and scolded him and asked him to stop taking drugs
but unfortunately his got caught taking drugs in a pub and was taken to police station
to have his urine tested
after two weeks the test turns out positive and his wife stop talking to him
and the baby boy was 3 years old now and his father was caught and put into DRC for 6 months
which meant that the baby boy can't see his father for 6 months but worst of all
in despair his mother did not much care about the baby boy and the baby boy
was left with the couple's parents to take care
suddenly one day the baby boy said one sentence which no one could answer him and the sentence was "where is dad and mum"
and the answer was to hard for the baby boy to understand as his father was in DRC while his mother was not around his side accompanying him and this situation isn't a problem that a baby boy can take it.
End of story
well this is a based on true stories of my brother
and i dun wan any sympathy but give the baby boy some sympathy of not having his parents by his side
i am here to tell a story about a 3 years old little boy
well a couple of the same age got married as the women got pregnant before marriage
with the help of their parents they got married after a few months
the boy was born actually they can have a happy family
but the father got into bad company
and start to bet on soccer and take drugs
and when he loses money in soccer and he does not have the money to pay the debt
he went to loan sharks to lend money to pay off the debt
but the father was in army and with every month of 400 dollars of pay from the army
it is not enough to clear the debt of the loan sharks
the debt start to rise by alot and the father was totally unable to clear the debt
and started to lend money from his parents and siblings
but it is still not enough to clear off the debts
in the end the loan sharks starts to come disturb his family
by throwing flower pots outside their house door
writing words on the walls of the staircase
it cause his family to have darkness in their life
and the wife get to know about his husband having this kind of problem
she did not leave him alone instead she helped him to clear his debt
but when everyone in his family or his wife hope he will turn over a new leaf
something happen
he start taking drugs and gotten himself into debt again
and this time it is worst he owe more then 10k from the loan sharks
but to prevent the family to get disturbed from the loan sharks his mother took out money
to help him clear his debt but he did not stop taking drugs
and one day his mother found something about drugs in his room
and his mother was filled with anger and disappointment
and scolded him and asked him to stop taking drugs
but unfortunately his got caught taking drugs in a pub and was taken to police station
to have his urine tested
after two weeks the test turns out positive and his wife stop talking to him
and the baby boy was 3 years old now and his father was caught and put into DRC for 6 months
which meant that the baby boy can't see his father for 6 months but worst of all
in despair his mother did not much care about the baby boy and the baby boy
was left with the couple's parents to take care
suddenly one day the baby boy said one sentence which no one could answer him and the sentence was "where is dad and mum"
and the answer was to hard for the baby boy to understand as his father was in DRC while his mother was not around his side accompanying him and this situation isn't a problem that a baby boy can take it.
End of story
well this is a based on true stories of my brother
and i dun wan any sympathy but give the baby boy some sympathy of not having his parents by his side
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Untitled
i am sitting infront of my comp looking at my blog
my blog is already dead by now, no one had came to view this blog for a period of time
not even a tagg.
so i decided to turn my blog into a diary for me to write out thing that had been hiding in my heart for a long time .
first, to my baby that had accompanied me through ups and down for 2 years and 5 months
baby i had lots of thing i want to said to you but i don't have the courage to tell you
the only reason is that i am afraid the thing i said will hurt you so i had kept it all into the deepest part of my heart and locked it. but i am afraid my heart can't keep it anymore
but everytime i think of you my mind will gone blank as if all the thing are being locked back
everytime i saw you, you are just like an angel to me
i don't care who or what kind of people said bad thing about you because to me u are still my baby nothing will change that.
but baby we are like sun and moon
i am the sun while you are the moon, my warm and my concern had never failed you but instead your cold and darkness had started to reach me.
i may be a simple guy and not a person will make you laugh and enjoy the day
but i am trying my very best to make every minutes and every second of your life to the fullest
but i am a guy that needs lots of concern and love
the days that we had together when we just started our relationship was the happiest days of my life but now even thought we still had this kind of days but i can't feel your concern anymore
i miss those days that i hugged u chatting thing together than now when we sat together there will always be a gap. do u know how jealous i am when i saw other people hugging their gf or bf in their arms. maybe a hug or a kiss might not seem as important but to me a hug and a kiss
can overcome all the troubles i have and it brighten my days up alot
i still remember the days i hugged you how warm it was for me and the days you always sending me messages that really brighten my days but now we are just like friends
do u know that everyday i end school the thing i want to do most is to faster meet you
but i know if you everday meet me your freedom will get controlled so i don't mind you meet me later in the evening but sometimes you used up all your energy and when i send you home your mood will start to go down because you are too tired and we never chat till you reached home baby i hope you will leave some energy to chat with me when i send you home
do you know when i send you home we never chatted i felt very down and sad as i tried ways to cheer you up but i don't know whether does it worked but i really hope that it will work
baby i love you more than anyone i saved all the best for you and tried my best to finished the thing you want me to do i am willing to do anything to keep that smile of yours on your face
hubby know that i had my bad habits too but hubby will change for you i know you don't believe forever love but hubby will let our love continue baby have confidence in hubby don't lose your trust in love relationship.
baby hubby doesn't expect much hubby only wants more care and concern from you
but no matter what hubby will always be there for you
hubby will still love you
last of all baby you are still my sunshine baby hubby love you muackx =)))
my blog is already dead by now, no one had came to view this blog for a period of time
not even a tagg.
so i decided to turn my blog into a diary for me to write out thing that had been hiding in my heart for a long time .
first, to my baby that had accompanied me through ups and down for 2 years and 5 months
baby i had lots of thing i want to said to you but i don't have the courage to tell you
the only reason is that i am afraid the thing i said will hurt you so i had kept it all into the deepest part of my heart and locked it. but i am afraid my heart can't keep it anymore
but everytime i think of you my mind will gone blank as if all the thing are being locked back
everytime i saw you, you are just like an angel to me
i don't care who or what kind of people said bad thing about you because to me u are still my baby nothing will change that.
but baby we are like sun and moon
i am the sun while you are the moon, my warm and my concern had never failed you but instead your cold and darkness had started to reach me.
i may be a simple guy and not a person will make you laugh and enjoy the day
but i am trying my very best to make every minutes and every second of your life to the fullest
but i am a guy that needs lots of concern and love
the days that we had together when we just started our relationship was the happiest days of my life but now even thought we still had this kind of days but i can't feel your concern anymore
i miss those days that i hugged u chatting thing together than now when we sat together there will always be a gap. do u know how jealous i am when i saw other people hugging their gf or bf in their arms. maybe a hug or a kiss might not seem as important but to me a hug and a kiss
can overcome all the troubles i have and it brighten my days up alot
i still remember the days i hugged you how warm it was for me and the days you always sending me messages that really brighten my days but now we are just like friends
do u know that everyday i end school the thing i want to do most is to faster meet you
but i know if you everday meet me your freedom will get controlled so i don't mind you meet me later in the evening but sometimes you used up all your energy and when i send you home your mood will start to go down because you are too tired and we never chat till you reached home baby i hope you will leave some energy to chat with me when i send you home
do you know when i send you home we never chatted i felt very down and sad as i tried ways to cheer you up but i don't know whether does it worked but i really hope that it will work
baby i love you more than anyone i saved all the best for you and tried my best to finished the thing you want me to do i am willing to do anything to keep that smile of yours on your face
hubby know that i had my bad habits too but hubby will change for you i know you don't believe forever love but hubby will let our love continue baby have confidence in hubby don't lose your trust in love relationship.
baby hubby doesn't expect much hubby only wants more care and concern from you
but no matter what hubby will always be there for you
hubby will still love you
last of all baby you are still my sunshine baby hubby love you muackx =)))
Monday, June 15, 2009
15th June 2009
hi people
today sure have lots of thing happened LOL
first thing first last night i wanted to wake up early and try out my sushi making
but in the end i press away and continue sleeping haha
nvm than went to vivo city and walk walk
around 6 plus went back to amk and met my girlfriend haha
slacked at CＣ than send her home and she asked me to feed her hamster
but i noticed her hamster was lying there not moving and i told her hamster had passed away
i know that she is very sad but she is putting a brave front in front of me
haiz and i brought the cage together with her went to the soil and buried the hamster
ohmitoufu baby dun be sad le not you did not taken care him enough
is juz he got sick and pass away stay happy ya baby love u muackx
last thing good bye fatty =)
gtg
ciaos people =))
today sure have lots of thing happened LOL
first thing first last night i wanted to wake up early and try out my sushi making
but in the end i press away and continue sleeping haha
nvm than went to vivo city and walk walk
around 6 plus went back to amk and met my girlfriend haha
slacked at CＣ than send her home and she asked me to feed her hamster
but i noticed her hamster was lying there not moving and i told her hamster had passed away
i know that she is very sad but she is putting a brave front in front of me
haiz and i brought the cage together with her went to the soil and buried the hamster
ohmitoufu baby dun be sad le not you did not taken care him enough
is juz he got sick and pass away stay happy ya baby love u muackx
last thing good bye fatty =)
gtg
ciaos people =))
Sunday, June 14, 2009
14th June 2009
yo guys i am back haha
long time no blog le very busy this few days
wat the hell family alot of tai zi because of my bro
first, my front door got thrown by a flower pots by loan sharks
secondly, staircases walls of the floor 3,4,5 got written by loan sharks with our unit number
the loan sharks are bo liao or wat sia in the middle of the night nothing to do ar so good to write meh go yr home and write la!i swear one day let mi see until them it shall be the worst day of their life nvm dun wan talk about thing that spoil my mood
i have been going out with my brothers and my gf to lots of places and have lots of fun wohoo
i am hoping for another trip out with them again haha
baby hubby misses u now!!!
gtg
ciaos!
long time no blog le very busy this few days
wat the hell family alot of tai zi because of my bro
first, my front door got thrown by a flower pots by loan sharks
secondly, staircases walls of the floor 3,4,5 got written by loan sharks with our unit number
the loan sharks are bo liao or wat sia in the middle of the night nothing to do ar so good to write meh go yr home and write la!i swear one day let mi see until them it shall be the worst day of their life nvm dun wan talk about thing that spoil my mood
i have been going out with my brothers and my gf to lots of places and have lots of fun wohoo
i am hoping for another trip out with them again haha
baby hubby misses u now!!!
gtg
ciaos!
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
2nd June 2009
hi people
today went out with ming,cong.nick and venteo but baby didn't come out =( sad
we went j8 cause we was thinking of playing arcade haha
reached j8 first thing go eat went to LJS my favourite yay
after lunch time for ARCADE!!~~~~~
played here and there i challenged ming for a strength battle haha
and i won wohoo he got a score of 897 and me i got 902 won by 5 i am still the strongest haha
cong they all crazy de played time crisis dun know play until how much coins from alot become none haha i changed another 5 bucks i decided to grab a soft toys for my baby cause last time i tried and in the ended spended 40 bucks but i caught none sad haha this time it took my 2 tries and i caught it i am so happy haha hope baby will like it so i went back to play other thing in the end we spended 60 plus bucks nvm la its fun haha
went back home after that
sian got to go for school on wed,thurs and fri for conquer O waste of time sia sian
that's all for today
byes people =))
i love my baby muackx =)))
today went out with ming,cong.nick and venteo but baby didn't come out =( sad
we went j8 cause we was thinking of playing arcade haha
reached j8 first thing go eat went to LJS my favourite yay
after lunch time for ARCADE!!~~~~~
played here and there i challenged ming for a strength battle haha
and i won wohoo he got a score of 897 and me i got 902 won by 5 i am still the strongest haha
cong they all crazy de played time crisis dun know play until how much coins from alot become none haha i changed another 5 bucks i decided to grab a soft toys for my baby cause last time i tried and in the ended spended 40 bucks but i caught none sad haha this time it took my 2 tries and i caught it i am so happy haha hope baby will like it so i went back to play other thing in the end we spended 60 plus bucks nvm la its fun haha
went back home after that
sian got to go for school on wed,thurs and fri for conquer O waste of time sia sian
that's all for today
byes people =))
i love my baby muackx =)))
Monday, June 1, 2009
1st June 2009 Second Post
hi people
was back watching movie with ming,nick,cong,my gf,chocolate and centaine
we watched terminator at yishun woho not a bad show.
that all for the nite LOL
last but not least baby hubby wants to thanks you for those encouragement u gave mi
u let mi realize that running away from the problem is not gonna help
i must face the problem and what done has been done regretting now is useless le
baby after the words u told mi i realize that i was not a boy with guts i am juz a balless bastard useless fuck who is always scare of tis and that haiz wat should i do now can anyone tell mi??
was back watching movie with ming,nick,cong,my gf,chocolate and centaine
we watched terminator at yishun woho not a bad show.
that all for the nite LOL
last but not least baby hubby wants to thanks you for those encouragement u gave mi
u let mi realize that running away from the problem is not gonna help
i must face the problem and what done has been done regretting now is useless le
baby after the words u told mi i realize that i was not a boy with guts i am juz a balless bastard useless fuck who is always scare of tis and that haiz wat should i do now can anyone tell mi??
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